TheBig Girl Pill

So, You are probably wondering The Big Girl Pill? What the heck is that? Well its an expression that me and my friends use when we finally break through and react as an adult would instead of reacting to a situation with lets say less than a childs mentality. We tend (yes I group all of girls together so I don't have to pinpoint only me!!) to be amazed at ourselves as we tell our stories of what happened to us and how we reacted with an adult mentality. We just can't believe how the situation didn't upset us and run us into a tizzy, how fear or stress, anger, loss of consiousness didn't rear their ugly heads. A Big Girl Pill? or God's HOLY SPIRIT working in us? We know who supplies us with The Big Girl Pill. Thank God He knows when to send the Holy Spirit as we strive to be more like Him. Thank God he walks and talks with me daily.

Running in the Storm

Okay so today i got home from my doctors appt (which was fantastic news thank you God!!!) and decided to go running since the rain had let up. As I was running I began to look around me. I was looking to see how dark the clouds were getting to make sure I would have enough time to get all my run in. I was on the homeward stretch when the sun came out inbetween some clouds and the warmth of it made me smile. I had forgotten the sun was there, kinda out of sight out of mind thing.. and so I thanked Jesus for the sunshine. So God began to impress on me about how in life we run through the storms, some are light drizzles and some are mighty, fierce , and reek with destruction , but He reminded me that His Sonshine is always there too! And just at the right moment He peeks through and His warmth covers our soul. I love Him.

Mark 4:35-39 The Sea is Stilled
Luke 8:22-25 The Storm is Stilled

Unfailing Love

Even though the mountains have been shaken and the hills removed My unfailing love shall not be removed nor My covenant of peace says the Lord who has mercy on you. Isaiah 54:10.

This scripture has been my sanity. I have gone through alot of emotions, and what if's in 2007, but I always came back to His unfailing love. Jesus said he would never leave me no forsake me (give up on me) no matter what. Even though I have failed him over and over I can stand on his promise and know that He will be there for me. Where mortal man has failed me God never will. I know I have a great future ahead of me and God knows what will come, but even if I walk through the fire I know He will walk there with me or even carry me if need be.

The Beckster's 2007

Goodbye 2007, Hello 2008!

As some of you may know the Beckster had a rough 2007. I went through alot of changes in my life, or what I thought was my life. I was pretty much told that everything I knew to be wasn't. The man I had feel in love with over twenty one years ago (19 of them married) preceeded to tell me I wasn't his soul mate after all, it was someone else he had dated for four months before he had met me, he called her and he left. Of course I was devastated my world as I knew it came crashing down. I mean I knew we had our troubles, but the man I had choosen for my life mate would never have done that to me. I had been careful to choose someone with the same belief system, morals and values. Someone who had felt first hand the devastation of divorce and swore he would never allow his children to suffer the same. And now my kids suffer. Oh he tells me the are older they can handle it, yeah.... I can't explain, words can't begin to express the sence of loss I have. I'm floundering. Who am I?? I was Chuck's wife, I was Chuck's wife, I was.....

Hey Thanks Ron!!

Well Folks it's official I'm a blogger. I had no idea. My friend Ron said he has been looking for my bloggs and I said what bloggs? I thought I signed up only to make comments on other blogg sites, but low and behold I have my own!! So my first blogg is dedicated to my friend Ron. Thanks Ron and by the way Hi!


P.S. I don't know if i will ever have anything interesting to say or any great truths to forward, but I'll give it a go!! The Beckster ;)